Captain’s Log, 4.15.18

I figured out why I am struggling to manage my bandwidth smoothly, and it’s because desensitization as a byproduct of CPTSD essentially gaslights your body into believing it’s not exhausted. Earlier tonight I tweeted, “Sometimes I’m not sure whether my exhaustion is a sign that I’m hardworking or a sign that I’m lazy or not … [Read more…]

Captain’s Log, 2.17.18

Let’s get something very clear. When I decided I wanted different results in my life, I was in a very low place. I had been dumped on my birthday a second time. I was engaged in a horrific toxic spiral that had finally become too much even for me – desensitized, I-don’t-feel-pain me – to … [Read more…]